♣ Wednesday, April 16, 2008
A few hours ago, I was feeling all horrid and awful bout myself. Guess the problems that I usually push aside, hoping that it'll cease to exist in time to come, finally caught up to me over the weekend and alls. Was going to type this really emo post but hmmm I think I've sulk enough readies. I'm sick and tired of feeling like an anti-social bitch, throwing total pointless tantrums and sobbing into the pillows afters. It's been really bad for the soul.
But heys, I'm fine nows. I guess the tonia that I love is back and my evil totally insecure little me can sooo retreat to oblivion. After all shit happens and I guess its time I start dealing with them alls instead of falling to self-pity and self- doubt.
Anyways yars...remember the proverb " don't judge a book by its cover"? hahs once again it has dawned on me just how true and very wise this proverb is lol. Was munching on an apple just now only to realise that its core had rot alittle when I was halfway through it. Gross rightts!! URghhhh. It's really ironic that this should have happen now..especially after the past few days incidents. It's like the whole apple incident is a representation of a certain few people and my life..
People whom i thought I could trust, whom I thought had my back were in fact the ones who were backstabbing me. Maybe I'm a poor judge of character, maybe its just a case of being too trusting or maybe I'm just too native to think i could win at this game or that you would even change.. I don't know but i sure have had enough of your nonsense. I need not stick around and take all that bullshit. Unlike some, I'm totally love myself and I know who I am.
Then agains on a brighter note, this week also made me realise who my true friends were and yupps it really is heartwarming, these little things that they do to show they care, that you matter. =) thanks lovelies.
back to basics
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 1:39 AM
