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♣ Thursday, April 30, 2009

i don't feel well again, im tired mentally, physically and emotionally.
when the going gets tough,
all i really want is a warm hug and you to listen and understand,
you to just be there to hold me close
and tell me that you'll make everything better
but....
-insensitive-
xxton

♥being MYSELF at 11:22 PM

♣ Wednesday, April 29, 2009

school's just gonna get tougher.
im gonna be so busy and dead tired.
already i miss you so much.

♥being MYSELF at 11:48 PM

♣ Saturday, April 25, 2009

A whole week of school is over at last. I love the weekends. Especially so when there's no school on monday, yupps so that means long weekend. What chould be better really. =)
But yea anyways the mom just ruined it and i need to get out. If you think im being rebellious. Shut up!

♥being MYSELF at 4:18 PM

♣ Sunday, April 12, 2009

It's been awhile since I last blog and many many stuff has happened since. As usual, there were happy days, sad ones and of course, who could miss the drama filled parts that seem to have become a regular feature in my life. Anyhows, I've not crumbled or whatevernots , which is pretty commendable I must say myself. smiles*
Just came back from Easter brunch with the family, and like every year before, it was fab. Don't you just love the buffet spread that the hotels put out during special holidays. It's like magical, the extra effort they put into the dishes and deco! I just love all the chocolate Easter eggs that they put out. so pretty! =)) Easter and Christmas, the best times to go for a buffet spread I always say. hehs* Food aside though, Easter is more than just that. It's been quite some time but today I actually looked forward to going to church and I'm glad I did. =) The message was suitably on whether God was true and many historic facts that support this were pointed out. Take for example AD and BC of our time line and so on and so forth. I'm really glad I went today.
On a totally different note, tomorrow marks the last week of the school holidays for us poly kids. Time passes so fast and once again I'm all excited to start a new year at school, kinda apprehensive though - this means a new class, new project grps and so on so forth. Still we're gonna be seniors!! Wow, has 2 years been over already??
So yea this is not a post for reminiscing. NO TIME FOR THAT! I've gotta start planning the most FABBB week like nows. Suddenly there seems to be many thing I wanna do, that I haven't gotta around to yets and I'm down to just A week?!? Shiats! There's butterfac I wanna check out, there's that excess drinking that I meant to get around to doing, there's sentosa, I need to tan, I need to sort my closet out and zomg so many many people I had been meaning to meat up with. Oh no and there's that O'level cert I meant to go collect ooohs and Uniqlo I must absolutely shop at this week. Yikesss!!!
Kkays don't panic, I need to make a list. Yes I'm good at that. Need paper and nice smelling pen!! *grinnns

loveyou loveyou so
xxton


♥being MYSELF at 6:05 PM

♣ Monday, April 6, 2009

ive got tons of happy days to blog abouts but no time. hahas soon soon. =)
feeling the love

♥being MYSELF at 10:15 PM

♣ Wednesday, April 1, 2009

It's 1am nows and I'm alittle bummed. Alrights i guess its more than a little. I am officially really bummed out. It's kinda sad actually that something as superficial as clothes actually matter so much. I would think that all that mattered was comfort and well looking basically presentable. Hell wait, I look better than presentable most of the time. I mean, I still manage to make people take a second look sometimes. Besides my totes are pretty pretty whats?!? And don't be mistaken, I do dress fancy on occasions lols, I do. I would think that would be sufficient enough to make you feel proud. I mean I am confident of who I am and how I look but I guess my style just doesn't fit that of your ideal.

To be honest that's kinda a sad thing to know because I would have thought there were other stuff that mattered more than how I choose to dress. Isn't personality, character, blah blah more important. Feels like your feelings are pegged on the way i dress sometimes. Suddenly I'm feeling a little insecure. It's sad to know that I've disappointed you and I'm just gonna keep doing so but I guess its just not me to conform to the pressure that others put on me. I can't change my style just like that, I just don't feel comfortable. It's just so not me. Which makes me wonder if you feel any less because of this, or would things change if a girl who fit the "dream image" comes into the picture.

I guess it's just something you have to get over cause im not bulging this time. You would know why if you were in my shoes for a day. I just can't seem to find the right words to describe how im feeling nows. Tomorrow is gonna be a long busy afternoon. I'm better be off to bed nows.

dresses and heels that impt...
ton =S

♥being MYSELF at 12:41 AM