<body>
♣ Saturday, September 27, 2008

why did I even bother telling you so much. Really it baffles me. Why did I even think that you would understand what I'm going through. It's plain obvious you don't. You probably just think that I'm being dramatic, that I'm over exaggerating again, that I'm making a mountain out of a mole hill, that in you words I'm not thinking straight, I'm acting too much. Screw you. It fcking hurts and I'm not exaggerating!!! You would know if you even bothered to visit me the past few days. But since you have no idea what discomfort I've been through or am going through shouldn't you at least be less harsh.
Really. I hated the way you talked to me, like I was some stubborn kid that knows nothing but insist on having her way. I know I must eat, but I fcking can't without my whole darn mouth hurting alrights. So really stop forcing me to do something I obviously can't. Fck you don't know how painful it is! I will eat if I could, but I can't. Period. Already at lunch, I was cringing with pain as I took each bite. Gave up and left half the food untouched. I know so not me.
The only thing I could probably eat now is ice cream. I guess. Will remember to get some tomorrow. For now, i guessing apple juices, herbal tea and water would have to do.

** How did we end up arguing again and me losing my temper..What wrong with me. Shiats! Urgghhh I'm just gonna head to bed. =X

♥being MYSELF at 9:27 PM

♣

It's been many many days readys but fck, I'm still fcking not well. Feel so cheated, especially when I've been taking my meds (yea those gross awful tasting stuffies) regularly. =X
The fever comes and goes..like literally. One moment my temperature could be a low 36.4 but by afternoon it could hit a high 39 easily. Crapps!! Adding on to the torture, my wisdom tooth hurts the hell out of me and somehow I've come to develop small ulcers on my tongue too. There's also a swell around my throat area. Yeah, mom thinks its swollen tonsils but well I guess I'll only know when I head to the doctor's to get it checked on Monday.

I whine alot I know, and my temper has been pretty short these few days. Feel really bad for losing my temper now and then, but everyone, almost everyone have been really sweet and understanding. Thanks millions. It really is very uncomfortable for me and on top of that I'm really pretty fcking scared. I don't want to have to go to a hospital, I don't want to have to go through an operation no matter how minor. I'm pain-phobic. Totally alrights! Everyone has their fears and pain just happens to me one of mine. God, I pray, please let me recover quick. Please let it not be anything serious. Please that's all I'm asking.

tomorrow marks the final day for the F1 races and also the last day of work. I'm going to see that I tahan till then. Maybe to you it's dumb and I'm just being totally stubborn by going to work even when I'm unwell. But it isn't me to quit halfway alrights. If I'm going to quit nows, why bother working the past 2 days thens? Honestly, I couldn't give a damm about the money really. It's just that I don't wanna see my hard work go to waste. Am i making any sense?? Nvm. I'm quite a workaholic, yea I already know that.

close your eyes, say a little prayer
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 8:30 PM

♣ Thursday, September 25, 2008

SICK SICK SICK!!!
i need some tender loving care, pronto.
=X
♥being MYSELF at 8:35 PM

♣

So I'm done with that FARM paper of mine. Now I'll just have to pray that I did enough to pass. Horrays. On the down side though, I'm down with the flu and whatever nots bugs yet again. Really starting to see a pattern forming. It seems that every time there's a exam I would be totally counted on falling sick, be it during or after the papers. Boo Hoo!
Urggh with a temperature of 39.5 yet again, I can literally feel steam coming out of my ears and my eye sockets burning. Yupps I'm pretty much a sad case nows.

Had to give yesterday's training ( level 2 course) and today's sentosa training/bonding trip with the rest of the team a miss. What a bother. Don't know how much shit I am in for skipping Wednesday's training but I sure hope it's not too serious. Really wanted to go seeing that I'm missing Saturday's training already because of F1, but by 5pm zomg, all I could think of was to sleep while my brain burned away. Rested at silly boi's place ( felt alittle awkward) before we headed out for dinner and then home. Thank you sweetie.

Zomg I can feel my brain cells heating up agains and I have the F1 thingy tomorrow morning. =X Just had a panadol again, going to sleep nows. Something that I seem to be doing alot since yesterday. urgghh I'm actually sick of being confined on the bed and told to rest and rest and rest. It's for my own good, but zomg it's bloody boring. Doesn't help that there is nothing for me to read and alls...cough* Haiz being sick sucks!

I still am like totally craving for chicken nuggets, ice cream or even a sausage muffin. I miss my Mackers. No wait, I miss all that yummy food, any yummy food for that matter! Tau huay would be good too. Actually anything other than porridge or mee sua would be welcomed nows. Ohs shiok!!! Erm... nots.

panadols are awful stuff but hugs of love are awesome
xxton

♥being MYSELF at 3:22 PM

♣ Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Yesterday at training was awesome. So was the day before catching the show mirrors with you. But today stinks. Today fcking SUCKS!!! And to add on to the crap, I've got that FARM paper to sit for tomorrow and I still know nothing except well budgeting and that's about it. I need to talk to someone but its God knows what time over at England. Then again maybe I don't want to talk. Like it would help, not. Just gonna huddle up between the sheets and muffle those sniffles. I wish i had a packet of chips to make me feel better. Can't make sense of my thoughts now. Hurt, disappointment, anger, confusion are the words of this moment.

I'm not going to lose my cool. I'm not going to breakdown. No I'm stronger than all these bullshit.
♥being MYSELF at 2:23 PM

♣ Monday, September 22, 2008

D: wtf! I've only been gone a few days and you got yourself into more mess? Lol ton what are we gonna do about you.
me: wahlao I didnt go around asking people for trouble lei..
D: bullshit! but you know you can't drag it on rights?
me: yea I know!!! but who should i.. I don't want to make a mistake here D. =S
D: think girl think!! rmb I told you, take too long and the right one might just fly away and you're then left with second best. Make a choice before you fcking regret!!!!
me: nag nag nag...wish it was that easy. zzz

spent the past week thinking through things, talking to different people about it, all to try to sort out my feelings and thoughts and make better sense of them. Still after much, I woke up today finding myself back at square 1. Just as utterly confused as I was before and still stuck in the sticky situation if have not become even more sticky and messy than it was a week ago. =X

I thought I had made up my mind, but unfortunately the human mind and heart works in ways that baffles us and here I am again faced with choices that I must soon make. I'm like super flicker and indecisive. I know that about myself. I also know that as much as I wish things would remain the way they are and that no decision has to be made by me, I absolutely should not let it drag on much longer. This way it won't be fair to anyone but zomg how the fck am I suppose to choose, to make a decision???

Craps and I haven't even studied for my FARM paper on Wednesday. Can't seem to bring myself to open the books and start working on them budgets and what nots. Accounting is such a chore. I rather take a marketing related paper x10 times than to sit through an hour of torture trying to complete a accounts paper. =X Gotta study hard, but before that I've gotta head down to training soon. It's been like a week since I last showed up at training and alls because of work. Groans..feeling so fat fat. Fattie tonia. Haiz kkays as I was saying I'm gonna have to start mugging before I fcking gotta retake the whole darn subject next year. God forbid that mans. So people, help me, don't tempt me by asking me out till after Wednesday. I cannot. Absolutely cannot. Got to mug mug mug!!!!

Zomg mom just called telling me to be home early cause she wants to talk to me. Eeks!! If I'm correct, it'll probably be a lecture on how she totally disapproves of the way I'm living my life and alls. Hopefully she doesn't think I'm on drugs or whatever nots again. Sorry but now I'm just too tired and pre-occupied to have to deal with all that drama.

can one have too much of a good thing
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 2:35 PM

♣

I'm totally in love with these small bunches of champagne grapes from USA. These small little juicy pods make my toes curl with orgasm. Simply the best. ;)
♥being MYSELF at 1:27 PM

♣ Monday, September 15, 2008

The weekend went by in a blink of an eye literally and somehow left me with a leaking nose. Urggh..have been sneezing non stop and dozing off here and there throughout the day. Must have caught the chill last night over at Gabbie's rooftop. =S feeling all woozy, i hope it passes soon. Manage to score a job with the old company doing an event this week. Can't possible turn up for work with a red and woozy nose can I? .hursss

Anyways yea, so last night was spent at Gabbie's rooftop. Was already stressed out because it was all so last minute. Throw in the rain, zomg i was practically on the verge of a panic attack lols. hahahs luckily, the rain stopped and well everything kinda turned out fine. Wasn't the best of parties, wouldn't even really call it a party, more of a gathering lols. Hopefully everyone had fun though. I know I did. ;) hehs, well I promise the next one can only get better yea.

And this time I remembered my cammie..so here's some pics from the night
the RMT peeps xhearts.
wif them lovelies


losing in a card game equals into the pool you go ;)

Mr drunk of the night goes to...


happy mid-autumn festival
and the moon shines ever so brightly
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 6:30 PM

♣ Saturday, September 13, 2008

Shopping with the mom today was awesome stuff . Shopped everywhere, bought so much. Pretty pretty stuff in the shops..but still I've yet to find the perfect dress for the up coming party season. Groannns... Mom decided to have Hagen-diaz Chocolate fondue for tea as a reward for me doing well in the exams. Wheeee!!! It was the sex mans! =) Zomg i totally love my parents sometimes. Wouldn't trade them for anything, anything at all!!!!

Got conned into going down to Kent ridge park with the rest of the extended family for some mid autumn festival thingy..almost died mans. The only redeeming factor was probably the fact that my little cousins were there too. They have got to be the cutest things on earth mans. Those fat cheeks, childlike innocence and clumsy little steps the take towards you. Zomg and when they smile at you, curl their little fingers around yours or just give you a kiss, its so heartwarming. Gosh kids are just sooo0oo adorable. Still, most of the time it was boring enough for me to almost wish I was smart enough and excused myself like my sister did. I could have swore she saw it coming mans. Hahahs oh wells, alittle family time is always good for one's soul. LOLs literally gotta thank God for J's iPhone though, managed to catch the Man U vs Liverpool match afteralls. Liverpool Won 2-1.Hoots! At last, it's about time Liverpool. =)

Kkays gonna head out awhile even though i promised myself to rest. Nahs not to zouk or Mos, but Daryl just for you, FOR YOU I'm gonna bother to change and head down. Better Appreciate!LOL. Hopefully I won't see Glenn and alls there, but oh wells, its not like I'm gonna hang there long yea. Long day tmr with loads of things not bought yets.

Oops think Andrew's here readies. Gotta go. Ciao!

i give you my word, sealed with a kiss
xxton
_______________________________________


Arrived just after 12 with Andrew and Shawna at Daryl's place. Imagine walking into a fully air-conditioned flat and not being able to see clearly past the living room because of the smoke in the air. Yea the place was pretty fcking crazy alrightts. It was like some underground joint with everybody fagging, booze everywhere and the music just blasting canss. The only difference was probably the twister sets on the floor..... Met a couple of people like Claire whom I met briefly at private school before. Singapore is just too freaking small don't you all think?? I mean look around and you'll probably find some friends of yours that somehow knows your peeps from other cliques. Apparently Claire was there with her boyfriend who did secondary school with Daryl and alls. Freaky mans. LOL.

Honestly, I planned to stay for awhile, but ended playing twister, catching up with everyone and only left at about 4am, semi-high. =X Cabbed back with a very drunk ellsie and her boyfriend. It was fun though and I'll give credit to Daryl. The guy sure knows how to throw a party. =)grinnnsss. Zomg I'm gonna miss you so much guy. Just one more week and you'll be fcking far away. Shucks!

the high-ness fades and all that's left is a sense of loneliness
xxton

♥being MYSELF at 11:50 PM

♣ Friday, September 12, 2008


Training yesterday was fun, with the team being really bonded and alls. The after effects of camp. Everyone is climbing alot better too. Maybe it's because we're all inspired by Chris Sharma, rock star of the rock climbing scene, or it's simply because we've all become stronger and better climbers with every training. =) Garrick still scares and stresses the shiatts out of me but at least I know now without a doubt that I can do this. I can climb. It's just all about the mental. I've just gotta quit stressing and start to rely on my instincts and just enjoy myself. Like what they all say, you can only get better with each climb. Hehs.

Shucks it's 3 already??!? That's fast! Time to get ready and head down for pt training. Discipline tonia Discipline. I'm actually looking forward to the run laters. It'll be good in taking my mind off all the rest of the drama that's going on in my life. =)

i just need more
xxton

♥being MYSELF at 2:00 PM

♣ Thursday, September 11, 2008

Do you believe that God is faithful, just simply so amazing and works in wonderful ways. He knew just what would get my mood up and alls. It's just what I needed. Thank you much. x

Zomg Tonia ng is utterly happy nows. Grinnss wheee! I can feel myself losing them marbles. Hahahs just got back from having breakfast with Amanda. Yeah I know, it's pretty miraculous that we actually made it to breakfast. Hahahs now you know why people say never under estimate the power of MacDonald's breakfast. Sausage muffins are simply the bestest!! Had a great time catching up with my babe, it's been like forever cansss...hahahs but yea I'll seeya soon agains, real soon. Working together is gonna be fun stuff. =)

So yea anyways back to why I'm so happy. Hehs. ;) I think some of you faster ones can already guess. Just checked my results online, and I'm a happy girl. Did better than I expected, actually. Hahhas time to claim my tau huay treat from a certain someone. Derrick are you reading this?!! Hahahas yea.. GPA increased too. It's still pretty low when compared with the smarties of the course but hey at least it's an improvement. Gotta keep this up and at this rate I might have a shot at uni life afters lols. Zomg I'm grinning and beaming so much I feel like an utter airhead nows. Hahahs. KKays earth to Tonia. Grinns. Zomg we still must not forget that I've got one more paper to sit for. Undoubtedly FARM is probably the most difficult of the lot. Gotta start mugging soon if I even wanna have a shot at passing the subject. God forbids if I have to retake the whole darn subject next year..Ewwww! Touch Wood!!! hehs!

I'm a happy kid and I hope this time it will actually last. Realised that my blog posts are all pretty reflective of my moods recently. Super flicker shiatss! It's amusing how I totally radiate positiveness, blissfulness ( is there such a word), happiness and highness in one post and the post following can be totally negative, moody, questioning, full of insecurities and confusion. Gotta really learn how to control the mood swings. It's always so extreme with me huhs. Zomg yea it is!! Hahahahs kkays.

You think the parents will be pleased with the results? I really hope they will be. I'm kinda pleased with myself actually. Is that normal or is that really show-offy of me to say?! Hahahs oh wells i guess it's okays huhs. After all it's not everyday that I do pretty well at an exam. It always has been my sister that brings home report cards that make my parents beam in pride. It's been really long since but yea at last me turn. Hehs. I guess I'm just a kid and as much as i try to appear indifferent, I'm secretly jealous of the how easily my sister gets the approval of my parents. Honestly I'm really over that whole rebellious attention seeking phrase of my life readies but i guess it still pricks sometimes. Zomg it's really quite hilarious and totally childish when I look back at how I use to get myself in stupid messes, do stupid stuff just to get my parents attention. It really was pretty dumb shits mans. Hahahs kkays that was random, I know. =)

Kkays before I go get ready to go for training and alls, take note TAKE NOTE...

14 September 2008
It's a Moon cake festival party
Venue: Gabriel Hse ( Lor 34, Central Meadows, Rooftop)
Time: 8.30 till late

Yupps it's still on, so make yourselves free people. Have dinner before you come though and come prepared to chill with friends and just have fun this moon cake festival. =) Ohs and we totally welcome +1's or +2's. Hahahahs kkays let me know if you can come yea. I needa get the stuffies. =) love you peeps.

cause today I'm a happy kid
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 1:39 PM

♣ Wednesday, September 10, 2008

So today is the only rest day Ive got from training for the whole of this week. Got awoken by some very shocked parents pretty early this morning. Apparently they weren't expecting me home till Wednesday morning or so, thus you can imagine their reactions when they found me snoozing on the couch. The initial plan was to get a lift from the Dad down to Daryl's place to collect my prezzie and yea ales ended up spending the rest of the day there just chilling out, yakking away, helping plan this weekend's party and watching movies. The guy made jello!!! Berry red jello!!! Sweetness! Thank you loads bestie!!!
Dozed off halfway through the day, the tiredness must have caught up with me. LOL. Had a pretty good nap though and woke up to find ellsie and the rest outside. Grinnss missed everyone so much. It was a good day, just chilling and lounging around crapping, catching up with everyone sans the booze and whatever nots. Poker was fun too. Just like in the past lols. Super nostalgic. Too bad I had to go home for dinner, promised my mom so seeing that I haven't and wouldn't be seeing much of them this week. Next time soon, I promise guys.

So as I whined to daryl over lunch today, I guess I kinda at the same time sorted out my feeling and thoughts. Got a guy's point of view on the situation and D thinks I'm a total fake, which i so am not arse. =) He reckons that I'm a total softie at heart and just wants to be taken care of by someone and that I should just shed the whole tough girl image I try to keep up around you and everyone else because it's just plain stupid. If I can't even convince myself that I don't care about you, how do I expect to fool the world. According to the self proclaimed sudden human analysis expert, I'm a romantic at heart and it's just pointless to keep fighting it cause one can't change such stuff. LOL.

hmmm i guess D hit pretty near the bulls eye. A friend once pointed out that I'm a sucker for sweet gestures and alls, which I guess it's true. Honestly I think is because subconsciously, I've fallen in too deep. I have allowed myself to care too much that i can no longer stay indifferent. D said that all girls are insecure and I just happen to be a fcking insecure biatch right nows. It'll pass. =X oh wells if that's true at least I can count on my effing huge ego and pride to keep me from becoming one of those needy, weak and utterly clingy kind of girl that I frown upon. At least I can trust myself to suppress those insecurities. Well if there comes a day that it gets too much, I could always walk away before I evolve into such a girl rights???! yea, all for pride. hurhurrs.

How did things become so different in just a few days? How did it become so awkward between us. Last night and the phone calls are seems so alien. No its not your fault or anything. Moreover I think that it's just me really. Everything between us just seems so vague and maybe now I want more. I don't want to fool around anymore. I'm afraid I'll mess up yet again. I just wanna be sure. Shucks these all count as insecurities huhs?! Maybe I would admit, I miss doing the simply fun stuffs, just chilling and yea...these days its a whole new different story. I wish I could turn back time.

nostalgic feelings and memories
too bad time machines don't exist
xxton

♥being MYSELF at 6:39 PM

♣ Sunday, September 7, 2008

Zomg you guys think I'm spoilt, hokays maybe I am, alittle. But shucks that mother of mine is like spoilt, REAL SPOILT She's like ZOMG driving me nuts I swear.
Just came back from having dinner with the family at Changi and oh mans where should I begin... hmm kkays, we arrived at the place at bout 7pm but only started eating at almost 8.30 thanks to the empress. Groans. Was suppose to have 'zhi cha'at our usual coffee shop but apparently it's too boring for the mom, she wanted to try something new, so off we went to the seafood store by the pier. Waited like damm bloody long before the person who came to take our order conveniently told us that they were out of prawns, crabs and 'kangkong'. Like zomg were they serious??!!? It's an effing seafood store, no crab??? Go catch some dude! Lol.

The mom simply refused to eat there afterwards so off it was to the hawker center. Almost threw a bitch fit at the mom afters. I mean I was like bloody hungry and here she was being picky and blah blah. My dad totally spoils her cansss. 'Buay tahan'!! I'm not being unreasonable here lols, it's just that who orders mince meat noodles without the meat?? How to order sia?!? Like the guy would probably think you're nuts or something cans!!! LOLSSS!! Thank God for the good food available though. Most of the stores were sold out and alls but the chicken cutlet hor fun and sambal stingray was awesome stuff cans. Like mouth drooling delicious. The night was totally saved by the awesome food. Oooo and here's the catch, it's CHEAP! hahas hokays maybe not cheap cheap but well at least it doesn't suffer from the east side pricing syndrome. LOLs.

So have gotta go back there soon. The place is amazingly adorable with its little pubs around and alls too. I simply have too try out the rest of the stores. =)

A few hours more and I'll be off to camp for the next 2 days. I'm excited yet well apprehensive. Will it be fun, will I survive at camp or will I decide that it's enough afters. Gosh what's wrong with me these days. I'm just feeling so restless. Hopefully this camp would prove to be just what I need - a chance to find myself, to get that energy up again.

A part of me doesn't want to go back to camp. I'm feeling lazy, after a simply crazy weekend.
Saturday was spent meeting up with Shaun to collect my bikini back (its ruined! i needa new set!!.sob), met Andrew but Daryl wasn't at home so yea, met berv to go sign the F1 contract stuff after much procrastination on my part, caught up and yea of course did pizza with silly boi for dinner. =) awesomeness!

Kkays better go pack my camp stuffies nows, 3 shirts, shoes, rock shoes... we don't wanna leave anything out yea. tatas people and see ya in 2 days! grinsss ;)

spoilt rotten ;)
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 9:44 PM

♣ Friday, September 5, 2008

Just got back from dinner with silly boy and weili at the stadium and zomg it's still freaking early!!! Mom definitely got a shock that I'm back so soon though. Apparently she didn't expect me to be back before 1am. I mean yea I guess I didn't too...it's a Friday afterall lols. But whatever!

Honestly I think the parents should cut me some slack seeing that I'm back early for once. Just been and still am being nagged by the lady for blowing too much cash recently. Eeks!! I hate the days she decides to go and update my bank book. Total bother mans. But yea crapps so it seems that I somehow blew 2 fcking thousand in the last moth odd or so? Fcking impossible mans, i mean yea I didn't even buy any big ticketed items whatsoever. Shiattts the prices for everything has been increasing but my allowance is still the same or even worse, been getting the cut from the parents. Shiat! Shiat! Shait!

Mom thinks I've been drawing cash to havoc and alls but honestly I've not cans. I mean even if I club, my drinks are normally settled for and no as much as you suspect, i do not smoke or do drugs. zomg please i would have gotten hooked a long time ago if I had let myself, so yea. I'm guessing most of the cash have been blown on cabbing, food, presents and all the other small small stuffies. Urghh mom's threatening to cut my allowance and confiscate my card. It's their secret plan to keep me at home instead of hanging out late often. Crapps it'll so kill me and my social and it stinks that they know that. triple pffts!!!

Gotta go down to sign the contract for the F1 thingy at 4pm tomorrow. Haiz, that means skipping cell gains. What to do what to do after that?? Zomg i neeed plans, ideas anyone? And please don't say shopping, there's seriously nothing in the stores that catches my eye. Everything is just so blah...boring. The thought of camping on my couch, watching DVDs all through the day ALONE is just too depressing nows. I've fcking been doing that too often, it's making me feel sad!!! LOL! And zomg I'm not spending the whole night at home toos, no way mans! Going away to camp on Monday, so I need plans nowss!!! Hmm kkays not much of a link there yea. I'm just ranting.

sometimes like tonight, just wanna take the night slow, cuddle up and watch the world go by
fcking missya so cheer up yea. don't beat yourself up over them stuffies.

cut me some slack, learn to trust
xtonia
♥being MYSELF at 9:58 PM

♣ Thursday, September 4, 2008

doing one of the routes in the gym x.

Seems like forever since I've been online. Zomg so much to blog about, yet so darn lazy.
Anyways yea so I went for the rock climbing internal competition yesterday. Good news is that I've not been cut and am still in the team. Bad news..erm well I'm having second thought bout it alls and honestly compared to the others, I've got so much catching up to do. Bruises and muscle aches everywhere..haiz and my pedicure is ruined toos!! Hahahs yea I know, I'm having a bimbo moment, pardon me people. A girl is allowed to whine and be totally bimbotic once in awhile. ;) grinns.

Been hanging out with silly boy loads these days. Gotta remember not to forget my other friends. That's why I'm meeting derrick afters. Will have to learn how to better plan my time seeing that I'll be at camp next week, working soon, got my FARM paper to sit for and zomg a million people to meetup with. And I've only got a month odd of holz??? Not enough!!!

gotta go get ready nows. erms yea if you were wondering, the 14th party is still on!!! GABBIE's place! will let you all know the details soon.
tatatas people

who to believe, you or them
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 3:22 PM

♣ Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Muscles are aching from yesterday's training!!! craps that's what happens when you don't do your required 60 pull-ups a day Tonia tonia. tsk! urghhh, tomorrow is the internal ranking competition le and its not a choice but a must that I perform well. Got wind that it'll be a bouldering competition instead of the high wall like previous competitions. Hmmss hopefully I do better this time. I mean, it's bouldering ayes?? Alamak but there's all this weird starting points that they'll give us. Already I can foresee my abdominal and arm muscles being pushed to their limits. Urghhh I so wanna do well, or well at least not come in last. Please let me do well! Imagine being cut out of the team nows. Zomg God forbid that!!! =X
Hahahas kkays I think I should stop and chill. I'm flipping here. Ekks! What time did silly boi call me?? I better go get readies nows before I'm late gains. tatatas people. =) seeya all soon, real soon.

wanna so wanna a back rub
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 11:04 AM