♣ Monday, June 2, 2008
Okays quick rant! Im so fcking pissed~!
I'm suppose to be studying nows but hey guess what I got a phone call and nows I'm seriously screwed up. You had to call and piss me off once again and its not like you don't know Ive got a paper tomorrow. Honestly in my opinion you're a total ass. I didn't need to hear all that bullshit. It'll all in the past nows. Its over so stop bringing it up already. Move on! Call me selfish but do not make your problem mine. I've simply got too much on my plate without your childish nonsense that you're throwing my way. I'm being very blunt here but I figured I need to get this out of my system or I'll be a wreck. Fucking grow up already will you. Stop blaming me for your messed up life. You can always do something bout it if you want to. If you calling always messes me up and makes me a total emotional wreck i rather you not call. Just fucking get out of my life if you are going to remain this way. I can't be friends with someone like that. It takes too much energy and I simply don't have the time or Patience. Its unfair and hurtful some of the stuff you say. I've tried to brush it away or just look past them but enough is enough. Stop freaking victimising yourself to gain sympathy cause I'm not giving any. Take a reality check. Just because I'm not complaining or pestering you and continuing on with life like it is doesn't mean i wasn't affected by all that happened. I'm hurt, i cry myself to sleep, i busy myself and i also move on instead of getting the whole darn world involved in my problems. Call me cold hearted or even a bitch as you have but I think that at least I'm being mature here. at least I'm realistic and practical. At least I'm considerate enough.Urgghhh so utterly pissed. So not mood to study now and ive only completed the first 2 chapters. Fuck I'm just going to sleep and what are the chances I'll be able to do the paper tomorrow.=S URGGGHHHH! Dammit i hate it when you do this to me. I hate even more that i let you. Stupid me.
totally lousy and beaten
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 12:12 AM
