♣ Saturday, June 21, 2008
Omg omg I'm disfigured! Shit no joke, and I'm actually pretty scared alrightts. Call me superficial but omg what am I going to do if my face doesn't recover? What's gonna happen to me. I'm like so young, I'm single still, I'm a girl. Omg omg omg!!!I'm hyperventilating! Hokays calm down. Tonia you're freaking yourself out. Chill. I'll see the doctor tomorrow and see what he says. Be damn if it takes a injection to make things better, I'll take it.
Anyways ya distracting myself from that horror, today was a pretty good day otherwise. Headed to east coast with the family to work those muscles. I trained hard, blading for almost 4 hrs and i did my sets before leaving the house. All in a bid to make up for my skipping of training and meeting up with with dustbin and jerm ( private joke) instead. At least it was fun. Kung Fu Panda was awesome.
Alot have been on the mind recently and now i ain't even sure if I'm fit enough to compete at Rockamania next Saturday. What happened today doesn't make things better.
Will everything be alright? Tell me it will. please
me and the sister. the bruises juz got worse
its the simple things like candy that cheers me up. always
tell me its only temporary. insecurities
Thank God I didnt break anything though. Though i kinda am wishing maybe i did instead. At least my hand will be in a cool cast instead of me parading my brusies on my face for the world to see and stare. Omg! Sorry guys. Looks like i'm not going to make it to st james or MOS tonight, or to the outing with the work peeps on wed night, or any party for that matter. Craps! This is pure torture. I'm scared.really.
will you be there, at the end of everything
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 12:08 AM
