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♣ Friday, August 29, 2008

zomg i just realised that the night can be really long when your stuck at home instead of partying the night away. Or maybe its just me huhs? I'm still trying to get used to the idea of me staying at home on a Friday night. zzz. Really, i think my mother is right, I'm such a social butterfly. Gotta learn how to tone it down and plant my feet firmly to the ground or rather as my mom puts it, i should stay home more often, keep my ass in the house. Zomg yea she said that alrights! LOLs!

anyways yea just came back from hanging out alittle with Marcky having tau huay and all. Awesome time just chatting and yea it has been quite some time =) Somehow talking to him always make me see things clearer and stubborn as I might be , he does make sense, even if I don't follow them. I'll try, i promise. Wasn't in the mood to drink myself silly or socialise and stuff so didn't tag along to Daryl's afters. Besides I told myself i'll be a good girl and please the parents by not staying out too late. Arn't you proud of me? I am. grinnsss =) Hope you guys had fun though, drink yourselves silly you bunch. I'll meet up with you all you guys soon, when I'm better. Soon yea =)

So much going on up there. I know communication is the key, but sometimes its just hard, you know. The tiny little details matter. I guess deep down I'm still a old romantic at heart, however much I deny that. There are just some things that a guy does that never fails to make me smile or just simply love being a girl. I can't speak for other girls but remember guys, with tonia it's always the little things that matters most.

a smile and you know ure halfway there.
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 11:33 PM

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At last a sigh of relief! Thank God my mc was accepted and so now I'm gotta prepare to take my sub paper. =) Have you ever known someone to be so happy that she's to take a sub paper? LOL. The fact that Irene Chan was really nice and even prepared to step in if she needed to is like totally comforting. =) She's pretty sweet when she's not PMS-ing yea. Really sweet.

Was really feeling much better afters and decided to head down to town for a facial. Shiok cans! Been long since I last pampered my skin. Totally neglected it amidst mugging for the exams lols. Got to make it a point to go more often. To the girls out there - ur face damn important! must take care kkays! grinnsss. ;) Was suppose to go down to collect the tickets for tomorrow's open movie screening at fort canning park but... long story short I'm not going readies. Managed to sell of the tickets to Marcus instead. =S Kinda disappointed since I was really looking forward to it, but oh wells there's always next time? Just well thought it was kinda cool a thingy to go to. Okayss tonia stop brooding over it. Doesn't matter nows.
Should I go out laters or stay at home? I'm already skipping Dbl O but to stay at home the whole night??? I mean like SH reminded me, it's Friday night, no one stays home on Friday night. =X urgghhh.


to both berv and Bryan, bon voyage and have fun =)

zomg it's so weird how sometimes I feel so loved but at other times it just gets so lonely. To all you who have been uttterly sweet the past few days, tonia feels the love. =) SMUACKS!

always look on the bright side of life.
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 8:00 PM

♣ Thursday, August 28, 2008

im sick and everybody is being fcking mean ass to me! like damm mean and its not even my fcking fault! dammit! What the fuck! Shitts why am I tearing! zomg tonia ure such a fcking cry baby! keep your emotions in check yea. =S

just came back from lunch and the doctors at parkway. Spent like 4 effing hours at the polyclinic today, all thanks to Daryl and his brilliant idea of visiting the polyclinic. Nostalgic feelings my ass. The hours spent waiting, - from damm sick until my nose stopped running, the phlegm have all been cough out and it still wasn't my turn to see the doctor yets. Zomg cans!

And here is the pissing part, I waited fcking long and the doctor still refused to write me an MC that states that I'm unfit for the examinations due today. Please will it kill to write a few more words to give a sick girl an easier life. Dammit! It only made things worse that Daryl had left for his lunch appointment leaving me all alone with all that shit. Just felt so lost and alone. Decided to ring David, seeing that he lived pretty near. Didn't think that he would come and honestly I just wanted someone to talk to but wells David came anyways and Thank God. Really thanks for making sure I was entertained and all the while and stuff. It definitely made me much much better. =) Consulted another doctor at the private clinic but he too said that he's MC does not state whether I'm unfit for the exams or not because there's no criteria that he can consult, blah blah... Shitsss i swear the doctors around my area all so inflexible and frustrating. He even said that it was against his morals and ethics if he wrote that down cause that means that the school was doubting and questioning the authenticity of his MC and stuff... Both doctors told me to get the school registrar to call them if there was any problems. Better go through mans after all that cash I've burnt. I'm damm scared and worried. Makes you wonder how come others have it so easy. =S shhsh!

Maybe that's the reason I'm being all sensitive and ya. I'll be alrights. A little tender loving care is all i need really.

medicines taste yucky
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 5:32 PM

♣ Tuesday, August 26, 2008

exams are such a biatch! I'm giving up. can you really finish studying?? its possible? haiz, already I'm thinking of all the parties afters the exams. grinsss screwed up thinking huhs. Don't worry, I think so too.
RBB's tmr and I've only read 3 chapters outta 17?? shitsss! where is that brands of essence of chicken? doesn't help that the fever is back and I'm out of orange lozenges. boo hoo. =S

Ohs and David, sorry bout dinner todays. Soon, my treat this time, promise! soon yea, after my exams. =)

tender loving care, anyone
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 10:55 PM

♣ Sunday, August 24, 2008

last Friday's Store Management paper was a total biatch! Studied pretty hard for it but all thanks to a particular 30m essay question, I'll probably just manage a pass. Urggh you guys who got screwed over by that qns will probably be the only ones who know how I feel. =S Oh wells 1 down, 2 more to go.

Celebrated Shu Fen's birthday with the cell mates yesterday. Savory Fare's chocolate truffle cake is the most amazing. Trust me its a must try. LOL.=)


Met up with Edgar laters in the night and headed down for dinner at where else, but my favourite beef noodles store at Siglap. Awesome food. Pigged out on Satay, Rojak and of course bowls of beef noodles. Laughing and talking the night away, I almost forgot that my exams were not over yets unlike everybody else lols. Silly me.
Decided to give hanging out with Ed and the other guys at Cine.afters, a miss though. Thought it would be rather awkward, so yea decided to ring silly boy to hang out. Crazy night of driving all around Singapore before finally ended up at Haji lane with the rest of the group in tow.


Only got in at 0430 this morning and now the parents are pretty much pissed at me. Urggh they can be so drama sometimes. If they keep using this whole emotional blackmail thingy of theirs, one day, i swear it's gonna lose its effects lols. But for nows, unfortunately they have gotten the better of me and Tonia Ng feels utterly guilty for being irresponsible last night, worrying them and stuff. But then again I'm still standing by my ground on how I think they are mega-ly over dramatic. I mean a night of irresponsibility does not mean that I've gone back to my old ways rights. If so I wouldn't even be back home till the sun came up or feel utterly guilt-ridden. Like please..have some faith in me, I've left that old lifestyle of mine behind. It's been like so long ago.I think I've changed so much, toned down so much, can't you see??


Howells I'll just be a nice sweet daughter, not step on any toes and pacify them for the whole week cause deep down, I'm just too sensible and crave for my parents' favour just like anyone else. =X


happy birthday shufen!


its the bomb. courtesy of me of course! grins!
with Edgar.

at ambrosia cuz our old fav. hunt was closed. pffts! pricey place, lost slippers and slightly scary boss = no 2nd visits from the Missy here.



with Jo. =) lurving the bangs sweetie..


it'll be alrights soon, i hope
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 9:25 PM

♣ Wednesday, August 20, 2008

I've got it bad this time. I know it when I can't seem to block you outta the mind like I've manage with so many others before. I know when I can feel myself wanting to tell you everything, but but but... if you know me well you would know that I wouldn't. It's just so me to keep everything to myself when stuff happens. Each time i brace myself to tell you, to sort it out i stop short of it. Feels like I'm chocking on pride? ego? arrogance? silliness? I don't know but it's eating me from inside.

occasionally second to none, always second to everything
grow up ton. =x
♥being MYSELF at 1:21 PM

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Been up since 7 this morning, it's 11 nows and still the feelings of last night lingers as I lay on my bed, awaken after barely 4 hrs of sleep, recalling the events of yesterday.

Disappointed? Yea totally. Don't misinterpret though, I'm not mad, just really disappointed and feeling really vulnerable here nows.
Maybe it's a guy's thing, maybe it's just you. Then agains, maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm just not use to being put off by others. Maybe I'm just being all bratty and self-centered. Maybe i over-estimated myself.

Anyhow so, you made your choices despite me dropping you millions of obvious cues the whole entire day. I was only this short left of saying it out loud. Something I would never be caught doing simply cause I'm too proud for that. Haiz.
You could have simply told me you weren't interested to hang out with mua here and spared me from feeling like the fool I felt i was. The needy fool. Never again Tonia. Never again would you put yourself in such a vulnerable position agains. Promise yourself that.60%- self, 40% - for the rest of the world to share.

Oh wells at least I didn't waste a good Tuesday night. Decided that since you obviously weren't interested nor appreciated the effort I was putting in, why waste my time ayes. I might as well spend my time with some others who would actually love to hang out with me rightts.

nahs I didn't go for tau huay with Edgar. Somehow wasn't in the mood and his hp kinda died. Long story short, we're doing tau huay Saturday instead. =) Daryl and gang were a no go too cause well you guys were still in town thens and yea I wasn't gonna wait. No. u wish!

Rang David instead and headed down for some much needed wafers and ice cream at Gelare with the dude. It was awesome. Sbeen so long since we last met, but wells besides growing taller ( i swear u did!!), I'm glad you're still the same old David. The guy who knows me, the guy whom I could always count on. Always. Stuffed ourselves silly and talked millions before heading over to Geylang for Rocher Tau huay. ( his idea!) Zomg! I'm gonna be such a fattie I swear. LOL. It's mazing how you somehow knew that that was what I just needed, COMFORT FOOD! Thanks tng. =) Cheezy as it may sound, you saved the night, I had fun. Totally. Zomg hokays that sounded so justice league. GEEK ALERT!! LOLS =) grinnsss.

ohs had dinner with berv at Ichiban before all that. awesome food. zomg if the table was bigger, im sure we would have probably ordered more. Ive so missed that place. yumms. nthing beats good food yea. =) happy kids!
David.
Ohs and guys thanks for dragging me to Mackers this morning, despite everything. As you promised, it made me better loads. Comfort food! Just wish you had let me have the hash brown too. pouts* my throat is alrights really!! grinnss. I feel like a blessed kid with so many people loving me..its just that.. oh wells i promised I won't think bout it.
i would tell u if i knew how to.
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 9:09 AM

♣ Tuesday, August 19, 2008

It's Tuesday and yupps that can only mean one thing...Gelare anyone?? grinnss..yummy wafers and ice cream! mmm gosh how i miss them.... =)

Heading out soon to parkway to study with the rest agains laters. Hokays maybe I shouldn't use the word agains seeing that I ended up only reaching parkway at 6 odd in the evening yesterday. With everybody gone on leaving already, the only company I had left was Gabbie. It was fun just mugging and catching up loads at MOS burger. Can't remembered when was the last time we chatted like that lols. it has been so long and yet I can still always count on the guy to tell me as it is and yes also really brutally sometimes. eeks! hahahs.oh wells.
~
Yesterday was awesome though I'm not telling whysss. grinnns don't we all love secrets. *winks! You've gotta be the densezzziest, most clueless block of a human that drives me insanity nutsss all the time, but still i find myself missing you, being drawn nearer each time like bees are to honey. zomg!zomg!zomg! =) =X =)
we mugged alittle, talked alittle, learnt alot
so get well soon
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 11:43 AM

♣ Friday, August 15, 2008

Happy 19th Birthday Haroz!!

I'm totally proud of myself for making it to FARM tutorial and not being the latest. It's an achievement hokays, seeing that the morning traffic is always utterly crazy, the fact that I've been missing all my morning lectures and classes for the whole week and ya I didn't get a good night's sleep yet agains. See all the odds were against me but I managed to get my lazy butt of the comfy bed and made it to the last tutorial of the semester. Round of applause please. Erm hokays i was just kidding. I'm kinda high right nows.

Gotta go get changed soon. zomg what to wear??? sometimes I think having that many clothes is such a chore. You never can decide what to wear and after you do, there is still which bag or which pair of shoes should you put on for the night. I'm sure you girls totally understand me. The guys just seem to have it so much easier ayes?? Just a pair of nice jeans, nice shirt and sneakers will usually cut it. It's really no fuss but then agains we see so many sloppily dressed guys on the street. Hmm I don't have anything against bad dressers cause I believe everyone has their off days, including myself, but yea make an effort to dress and you'll realise that the world is a better place. People will treat you better, trust me. After all this is a pretty superficial world lols.

Oops all that digression. Hahahs kkays back to tonight's programme. Gonna head down to Brewerk's laters to meet the old work mates for dinner. Yeahness! Totally looking forward to it. Its been forever since we last met and they're always such a fun bunch.

Will probably head down to MOS to club the night aways with my darlings and Jerold's boy band of guys. LOL. Zomg can't wait! It's gonna be fun stuff. Apparently many many people gonna be down tonight. And it's not my doing this time. I swear. Long gone is the tonia that needs to make everything into a social gathering ya. Wheeee gonna partay all the havoc cells outta my bod so I can concentrate on the exams next week. Pretty konkout logic I know but oh wells who cares as long as it sits well with my plans yea. *grinnns! See you all laters peeps, look prettay and charming. xx

always special to me.always
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 4:51 PM

♣ Thursday, August 14, 2008

So charm and I met up for dinner at Aston's last night. After forever, I know lols. So much has been going in our lives respectively and yea it was really nice just getting together and catching up with one another. Just like the old times. =) Was joined by Ed afters and just chilled at Macs cafe, laughing our asses off blah blah. Zomg charm, both of you are utterly cute together canns! Totally sweet stuff. LOL. take care of those flues of yours guys. We'll definitely have to meet up more often. Like you said, once every few months is not enough at alls!!

Simply could not bring myself to go for RBB lecture this morning. It was another night of restless sleep as I was abruptly awaken this time tearing like fcuk nobodies business. Urggh! Can I have a good night's sleep please???!!?
Anyways ya, decided to go down to school in the evening for the last of public speaking classes. It has been the best subject the whole semester and my full attendance can testify for that lols. It doesn't hurt that I like to talk so the subject is not that difficult for me. Still, I've learnt loads from Mrs Lucas classes. And like she said today - an ideal world is one where people praise you constantly, however this is not an ideal world, this in Singapore and nobody is going to praise you except yourself. So we must learn to praise and not put ourselves down for this is the only way we'll succeed in life. Pretty true huhs. Told you public speaking rocks. Pray hard I'll get my A though, even though I'll be pretty satisfied with a B+. I guess, but still, hoping hard. =)

outside mackers!


jianwei and i. for camp homosexuals! *grins. gonna miss you around dude.

tomorrow we'll party like rock stars
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 9:38 PM

♣ Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Cruse nightmares. It's pretty retard and already silly boy and Daryl have been poking fun at me, so ya I'm not blogging its contents. ung ung Nopes!

Woke up all sweaty and frightened yet agains at 4plus this morning. I wanted to call you but I held back and called another instead. Maybe it's cause I figured you'll be asleep or maybe cause I didn't know what I was to say and feared to disturb you. But I'm glad I talked to you in the morning. For that second, my world was sugar coated yet again before I drifted back to sleep.

Just got off the phone with Daryl yet again. It's the umpteen time today already. Things have been alittle rough between us recently, but I'm glad we trashed it out and made peace ya. Talked him through some of the stuff going on in my life nows and yea, you make sense guy. I should quit worrying so much, everything that happens, happens for a reason. Everything seems so much clearer and less complicated after I ran them through you. The wonder. *grins. To think I almost forgot how fun it always is to crap and bitch with you. LOL. =)
Gosh and you're gonna leave in a month's time. ONE MONTH'S TIME!!! You barely just got back and you're leaving so soon??? boo! I'm gonna miss you so much, what am going to do when you're gone, who's going to knock sense into me when I'm being dumb, who's going to be a constant pain in my butt, who's gonna love me even when I'm fcking unreasonable... ... Zomg! I just realised what an endearing punk ass you have become. awwwwssss....


remember longtime ago?

taking a trip down memory lane

xxton
♥being MYSELF at 1:19 PM

♣ Tuesday, August 12, 2008

adopted a very pro family good girl image today, heading home after school and asking to join the family to have dinner out. Well seeing that I'll be out for what's left of the entire week, it seems wise to get into the parents' good books now, to facilitate my plans for the next few nights. =) lol i know what you guys are thinking mans...I'm really not all about scheming little plans just kkays, i guess I kinda do miss them alots too.*grins. really lol. Dad was just talking about how little of me he has been seeing and gosh! i do seem alittle behind on the little sister's news. Well, at least dinner was fun. =)

On a more serious note, the semester is ending soon with the finals in approximately one week+ time?? Kinda gotten back most of the coursework grades readies with only a few tutors keeping mum still. Urggh can't they just get on with it and tell us readies. I mean, that way I'll know how hard I actually have to mug for the papers to achieve the grades I want rights. Make sense?

Personally I felt that RBB proved to be both a surprise and yet also a disappointment. Surprise being that we actually got a B for our report seeing that it was a pretty rushed job, we didn't consult him and well I thought there were actually a few points that could have still been added in. Yupps and there's also the heart wrenching disappointing moment I felt when he told us just how close we were to an A grade. If only we paid more attention to the details and a million other what ifs.. haiz. Even so, thank God for the B. Really it was by his grace and I guess a B is pretty good stuff. But still zomg the coveted A grade! It's so frustrating how this semester has been barren of A's for me.

Gosh sometimes I feel like I expect so much of myself. I'm starting to think maybe, just maybe deep down inside, I'm actually a true blue geek. LOL. Yea i do realise that I can be such an overachieving, over expecting thus overbearing human at times. Amazing that that is even possible seeing what a slacker i am usually mans. My gosh, what happened to the tonia that swore to live by the motto of expecting little so she wouldn't get disappointed much. Life definitely seemed more peaceful then. Zomg, I'm losing my mind here. I'm having a totally nerdy moment nows!!NERD ALERT!! eeks! ;X

LOL so I've should probably, no I've gotta work had and mug for the final papers. Especially FARM, seeing what a disaster that coursework grade turned out to be. =S But but, yea the ever present BUTS...zomg I can't concentrate. How am I suppose to study hard if I can't even get myself to sit still with my notes for more than 10 effing minutes. Must concentrate but but but..can't la. Alamak! How about a kiss from you, it might help? ;) No? Lol maybe I'll get into the mugger frame of mind when the dates draw closer. Next week sounds good. yea next week maybe. Ciao and its back to my OC re-runs.

sugar spice and everything nice
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 8:58 PM

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MR test today was pretty tough but wells I'm not thinking about it and thank GOD for peranakan Inn. Good food always cheers me up, no matter how not worth and expensive you think it is. I'm a total sucker for yummy tasting food and great ambiance.
Chilled at the Marine Cove after thats. Hmm it was fun just relieving all that childhood with the silly arcade games and breeze blowing messy one's hair. It's just so... nice. Ya NICE is the word. *grins.

Shucks gonna get back coursework grades for both RBB and MR tomorrow. I'm scared. Its highly possible that I've actually developed a phobia after what happened during FARM last Friday. These nights I find myself tossing in bed full of worry and uncertainty. Please GOD, please let me do well. Please don't let projects screw me up agains. No more. I don't think my mental strength or my heart can take a second blow. Praying hard.

when you'll walk me to my doorstep
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 12:41 AM

♣ Sunday, August 10, 2008

zomg i haven't been out of the house for more than 48 hrs and according to my sister, that's 48 hrs of looking gross, un-groomed and blah blah blah. Sad life.
So far being dateless and stuck at home has seen Tonia being pretty productive. Ive completed my online quizzes, tidied my closet, gotten rid of the pile of crap on my study table and ya tidy my notes too. Urggh and my whole stack of Store Management notes is missing. MISSING. Gosh, do any of you by any chance have it? Shitts I'm screwed. Ive got a million notes missing. EEKSS!!! HELP NEEDED HERE! LOL

Kkays enough of sulking and mulling around. Enough of OC re-runs. Gotta stop this addiction of mine. The exams are near REMEMBER! LOL. Its dinner with the family, out. What's new. Shucks i miss home cook food, but nahs lets not go there. I've still got a bath to take and clothes to pick out all in 30mins.Shiats!
Tatats people.

and you'll see me soon
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 6:38 PM

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you make me laugh crazy and giggle silly, but yet sometimes with you its like walking on thin ice as i find myself watching my steps carefully, constantly mindful of what I say or do. To have to be so careful and watchful all the time, honestly well it gets alittle tiring. I never know when I might accidentally touch a raw nerve, irritating and even pissing the shittts out of you. It sucks when you go all silent on me all of a sudden when just moments before we were laughing ourselves silly.
Times like that see you staring out ahead cold and expressionless, with your lips pressed tightly together. Intimidating, have I said that before? Often than not, I'm left clueless, racking my brains figuring what I did wrong and then failing. It actually bothers me this time. I mean usually I couldn't even be bothered so...Wouldn't it be easier if you told me directly what was bothering you. Well at least I then know how I can fix it rightts. Well of course that is if it needs fixing. =S For probably the first time I care and I want in, so please just try not to push me away. Am I being insensitive or maybe you're just alittle oversensitive. Maybe its alittle of both.

It's possible that one can be that charming and fun yets at the same time totally exasperating? How long more before one of us calls it quits because its gets too much. How long more before this time bomb of a relationship explodes in our face?

Ahsss im just being reflective and alittle emo here. No worries. Must be the low sugar level and alls. Bleahs. This post is so 'someone' lols. that someone knows. =)


when sorry just doesn't cut it and communication matters.
ox ton
♥being MYSELF at 1:07 AM

♣ Saturday, August 9, 2008

HAPPY 21st DERRICK!!
HAPPY belated 18th HERMAN!!
So yesterday night was spent celebrating Herman's birthday first at Hard Rock Cafe, then Derrick's 'after party' at Haji Lane- to shisha of course.
It was fab at Hard Rock. Amazing place to celebrate one's birthday, always. The food was good, the staff was great, the crowd was rocking and the live band was stunning, and must I say anymore. Hahahs hope you had fun hermmie! =) x


Headed down to Haji lane for Derrick's just after 12. Apparently I arrived alittle too late just and missed a whole bunch of them. Ah wells, one will still say it was pretty entertaining a night still. *grins. Kinda getting sick of shisha-ing though. I'm thinking over dosage. LOL. No seriously, really ought to find something else to occupy my time. Something that wouldn't kill my lungs or liver maybe. Suggestions?? Anyone??


I'm bored. So bored. Decided against joining the rock climbing peeps to catch the fireworks, not really in the mood to socialise, so I'm skipping my family's BBQ thingy and the party at Daryl's place and now I'm bored shittts and thinking that maybe I should have gone out. Do some shopping, grab a drink or something, anything beats staying at home ALONE and switching channels with the remote. Dull huhs. Oh shitts hokays maybe not so dull, Ive still got marketing research finals on Monday to study for and my Public Speaking online quiz to complete. It's totally boring and sad. Eeks! Can't concentrate, can't concentrate at home.


Anyways..here are some pictures, the rest is on..yupps FACEBOOK! =)

the birthday boy is LEGAL!!


yummilious food dished out by the ppl at HRC.

and of course, its group photo time!

us and the bdae boi/ 01 gals!


another picture with the other b'dae boi! =)

the remains of the shisha group

paparazzi shots~ LOL x 3


and my fav. shot of the day. grins**

many many other photos on face book and some are well just too scandalous to post. To protect the victims concerned, they are kept private. *grins ask me for them if u need a laugh though.
it still tickles my inside. LOL.


tonia loves you
xxton

♥being MYSELF at 5:17 PM

♣ Friday, August 8, 2008

realised i haven't been spending much time at home recently, so yupps the past 2 days have kinda been spent at home, catching up with the family members and tidying up my stuff.

Today was awesome apart from the weather which messed stuff up. I'll get to that laters.
Ya so I headed to school like pretty late for my public speaking presentation. It went well pretty well, I must say. Hahas guess all that practice was useful after all. Jian Wei was awesome in delivering the persuasive part of our speech too. Kudos guy! =) Nows just hopefully I've done well enough to get a B+. There's still the online quizzes though, that everybody is claiming its a killer. Eeks!

hahahs so ya was suppose to meet Marcus for tea after my presentation, but the dumb ass weather messed everything up. Had to give the vespa a miss cause it was pouring cats and dogs mans. Shucks rightss..i know. Ended up grabbing a drink from the engin canteen and just catch up till the rain got light enough for him to ride over to Daryl's place. Seems like forever since we last hanged out and the weekend sounds awesome. You guys have fun ya. *grins.

Got a long day tomorrow with FARM and IRENE CHAN at 9am. Haven't even done my tutorials yets mans. Shucks aiya, whatever. Pray hard she'll be in a good mood. On a more serious note, what should I wear tomorrow ayes.. its such a bother being a girl and having so many choices sometimes. HEADACHE! hahahhs
xoxo

only you get me all flustered
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 1:18 AM

♣ Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Singfest was awesome! Wait did I just say that agains? zomg my vocab is really shrinking here. =S hahahs but whatever. Day two on Sunday proved to be just as amazing as the first day. The crowd was definitely crazier and the place was freaking ass packed full mans. It was like every inch of the grassy hill was covered by mats and humans. Even the mosh pit was unusually crowded as compared to the day before. Must have been because day 2 artists are all pretty much main stream and definitely more radio friendly, while day 1 saw a more concentrated rock performance lol. Its the only reason I can think of. Pussycat dolls, Panic at the Disco, One Republic, Alicia Keys and Jason Mraz.. well you get it. hahahs

My personal favourite- definitely Jason Mraz mans. He's like awesome stuff. His voice is zomg AMAZING!!! Liked the fact that he was such a showman too. Coolness. The other acts were pretty decent too. Nothing too majorly assy apart from maybe the one time when the mics failed during panic's performance. Crappy stuff. The pussycats were hot stuff. I still think the sound crappy like live, but ohs mans they are hot stuff. Maybe alittle slutty and very much sexed up, but still hot enough to ensure that every pair of eyes were on them.. especially the guys cans. Zomg you should have seen their faces. Lols. The show was closed by Alicia Keys which was well perfect, i must say.

Bumped into many familiar unexpected faces there like Owen and Roxanne. Awesomeness! Lol apparently many others like Eugene, blah blah.. A disappointment that I didn't get to meet up with you though Marcus. Really wanted to meet your date. Hahas it was just too packed I guess. Hope you had fun even if Daryl was tagging along lols. That guy can be so clueless sometimes. Hahahs. Maybe I'll see you guys soon, in school? We should do something, and no I'm not doing Daryl's place. It's bad we all know! LOL =)

In conclusion, tonia ng is $303 bucks poorer but zomg singfest was totally worth it!! Guess that means i won't be shopping for awhile nows. yeah rightts! Lol people help my parents, remind me...or maybe you know what, don't. =))

kisses. pictures are on facebook for now. Get FACEBOOK! LOL

ultimately, you made it all worth
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 1:20 AM

♣ Sunday, August 3, 2008

zomg! Sing fest yesterday was awesome stuff!!! Loads of new song and crowd favorites were played throughout the night lols. The place was simply rocking with rocking rock music. LOL no pun intended there. Hahahs ya. Simply Plan played to impress, New Found Glory was pretty cool, Travis sounds better on record, Lost Prophets didn't disappoint but it was Meele that found a new fan in me. They were zomg awesome-ness!! Hahahs yes yes I know there's no such word in the English dictionary but whatever its ton you're talking to here. LOL. Oh yars did I say that they are fcking charming too! Hahahs yupps I'm totally hooked, you get the drift. Go listen to them ya.

Alrights guess I better go wash up and beautify myself soon. *grins! yeah, hopefully today will be even better then yesterday. Looking forward to Panic and One Republic's slots lols.

Oh and ya, any of you guys have any idea how we're suppose to go about completing the Individual Journal for Retail Pract?? It's like due tomorrow! I've checked V-bus and they don't tell you shits anything lols. Be sweet and help me out here ya. I really have to start typing out the 3 pages? of essay out, but how to when I don't know what is suppose to be inside?? LOL help me out here, any kind soul??? =))

photos soon, when I'm not rushing about like a mad women. there's simply too many things to do.

silly smiles for when you're arms are around me
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 1:30 PM

♣ Saturday, August 2, 2008

That's it! At last! all projects have been submitted. Hoorays yea. hahahs well guess that just leaves me with presentations next week and oh shucks that means the exams are soon too. ewww. hahahs

So it was to art friend and laters RC with my darlings after school yesterday. I'm telling you, nothing beats walking about an arts and craft store lols. The amount of stuff they have...omg I could spend hours in there if not for the girls rushing me outta there. Thank God too. Who knows how much more I would have spend if I stayed in any longer. Left the store happy with a packet full of beads and well ya a whole lot poorer. Ohs bother me.

Anyways ya, headed down to our little favourite joint in Haji Lane for some well deserved shisha and catching up session afters. It was craziness I'm telling. It was uppity fun and zomg I didn't realise I haven't been toking to you for that long SWY. LOls. I'll let the pictures do the talking since a picture speak a thousand words and I'm just too lazy to type anymore.

Whee so guess what... I'm heading down to Singfest laters. Travis, Lost Prophets, Meele..sounds like awesome stuff ayes! haven't decided if i should go for both days though, its Jason Mraz, Pussycat Dolls, Panic and One Republic tomorrow. Sounds like good stuff but really I'm only there for Travis and the Lost prophets mans. Should I go, or should I sell.. hmmm.
Whatever. Kkays better get changed, still got some errands to run. eeks!

I'll seeya laters *grins
pictures up soon, cross my heart. x

will you hold me in your arms
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 2:12 PM

♣ Friday, August 1, 2008

I've just gone through half the tub of swensens sticky chewy chocolate ice cream but I'm not happy. Well not exactly sad, but I'm just not my usual crazy self that I am always after a ice cream. The sugar rush doesn't seem to be getting into me at all. Mmmm wished I had a bar of crunchie nows, somehow it has become my comfort food for the past few days. It calms me down when I get agitated and the constant sugar rush keeps me so high its virtually impossible to feel any negativeness when I'm chomping down on a bar. I'm serious. Alrightts its starting to sound too much like an advertisement for crunchie and they are not even paying me or anything so all the more I should stop. There.

Feeling kinda moody right nows.
I'm a girl with some serious trust issues, that I know. I know that it gets irritating when I doubt you, when I seek reaffirmation. But well what am i suppose to do? I'm scared. I'm scared that if i rush into things, I'll unintentionally mess stuff up. I'm scared, scared to take a step forward, mainly because there's so many things I'm still unsure, still unclear about, many things that you're not telling. I'm scared cause i don't know anything. I'm scared that things will change, that... the list goes on but you get the drift. Already things are not very smooth, what makes you think that it won't be worse later on? I know I'm getting irritating, its like i keep stalling , its like i don't trust you to take a step forward. Well its just as much me that I don't trust. My inner voice keeps repeating the risks I'm taking if... will you calm my fears and settle my heart? will you quieten down that voice in my head? will you reassure me that everything will be alright? will you not push me away once again?
maybe just maybe thens...

I never told you this but the day you told me of someone else, the times you pushed me away, they hurt. they hurt so much that I knew it had to mean something. These I'll never tell, maybe cause of pride or maybe its fear of being vulnerable. Maybe its a combination of both, even I don't know. When is the day i can trust? When is the day you will trust? will it be ever? will you one day tell me what's bothering you. maybe then that day...

its all too sketchy nows and just a girl with trust issues.

~its back to the projects nows. Rbb be done and over with!

will you be there, a shoulder i can lean on
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 12:56 AM