♣ Sunday, August 10, 2008
you make me laugh crazy and giggle silly, but yet sometimes with you its like walking on thin ice as i find myself watching my steps carefully, constantly mindful of what I say or do. To have to be so careful and watchful all the time, honestly well it gets alittle tiring. I never know when I might accidentally touch a raw nerve, irritating and even pissing the shittts out of you. It sucks when you go all silent on me all of a sudden when just moments before we were laughing ourselves silly.
Times like that see you staring out ahead cold and expressionless, with your lips pressed tightly together. Intimidating, have I said that before? Often than not, I'm left clueless, racking my brains figuring what I did wrong and then failing. It actually bothers me this time. I mean usually I couldn't even be bothered so...Wouldn't it be easier if you told me directly what was bothering you. Well at least I then know how I can fix it rightts. Well of course that is if it needs fixing. =S For probably the first time I care and I want in, so please just try not to push me away. Am I being insensitive or maybe you're just alittle oversensitive. Maybe its alittle of both.
It's possible that one can be that charming and fun yets at the same time totally exasperating? How long more before one of us calls it quits because its gets too much. How long more before this time bomb of a relationship explodes in our face?
Ahsss im just being reflective and alittle emo here. No worries. Must be the low sugar level and alls. Bleahs. This post is so 'someone' lols. that someone knows. =)
when sorry just doesn't cut it and communication matters.
ox ton
♥being MYSELF at 1:07 AM
