♣ Monday, September 22, 2008
D: wtf! I've only been gone a few days and you got yourself into more mess? Lol ton what are we gonna do about you.
me: wahlao I didnt go around asking people for trouble lei..
D: bullshit! but you know you can't drag it on rights?
me: yea I know!!! but who should i.. I don't want to make a mistake here D. =S
D: think girl think!! rmb I told you, take too long and the right one might just fly away and you're then left with second best. Make a choice before you fcking regret!!!!
me: nag nag nag...wish it was that easy. zzz
spent the past week thinking through things, talking to different people about it, all to try to sort out my feelings and thoughts and make better sense of them. Still after much, I woke up today finding myself back at square 1. Just as utterly confused as I was before and still stuck in the sticky situation if have not become even more sticky and messy than it was a week ago. =X
I thought I had made up my mind, but unfortunately the human mind and heart works in ways that baffles us and here I am again faced with choices that I must soon make. I'm like super flicker and indecisive. I know that about myself. I also know that as much as I wish things would remain the way they are and that no decision has to be made by me, I absolutely should not let it drag on much longer. This way it won't be fair to anyone but zomg how the fck am I suppose to choose, to make a decision???
Craps and I haven't even studied for my FARM paper on Wednesday. Can't seem to bring myself to open the books and start working on them budgets and what nots. Accounting is such a chore. I rather take a marketing related paper x10 times than to sit through an hour of torture trying to complete a accounts paper. =X Gotta study hard, but before that I've gotta head down to training soon. It's been like a week since I last showed up at training and alls because of work. Groans..feeling so fat fat. Fattie tonia. Haiz kkays as I was saying I'm gonna have to start mugging before I fcking gotta retake the whole darn subject next year. God forbid that mans. So people, help me, don't tempt me by asking me out till after Wednesday. I cannot. Absolutely cannot. Got to mug mug mug!!!!
Zomg mom just called telling me to be home early cause she wants to talk to me. Eeks!! If I'm correct, it'll probably be a lecture on how she totally disapproves of the way I'm living my life and alls. Hopefully she doesn't think I'm on drugs or whatever nots again. Sorry but now I'm just too tired and pre-occupied to have to deal with all that drama.
can one have too much of a good thing
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 2:35 PM
