♣ Saturday, September 27, 2008
It's been many many days readys but fck, I'm still fcking not well. Feel so cheated, especially when I've been taking my meds (yea those gross awful tasting stuffies) regularly. =X
The fever comes and goes..like literally. One moment my temperature could be a low 36.4 but by afternoon it could hit a high 39 easily. Crapps!! Adding on to the torture, my wisdom tooth hurts the hell out of me and somehow I've come to develop small ulcers on my tongue too. There's also a swell around my throat area. Yeah, mom thinks its swollen tonsils but well I guess I'll only know when I head to the doctor's to get it checked on Monday.
I whine alot I know, and my temper has been pretty short these few days. Feel really bad for losing my temper now and then, but everyone, almost everyone have been really sweet and understanding. Thanks millions. It really is very uncomfortable for me and on top of that I'm really pretty fcking scared. I don't want to have to go to a hospital, I don't want to have to go through an operation no matter how minor. I'm pain-phobic. Totally alrights! Everyone has their fears and pain just happens to me one of mine. God, I pray, please let me recover quick. Please let it not be anything serious. Please that's all I'm asking.
tomorrow marks the final day for the F1 races and also the last day of work. I'm going to see that I tahan till then. Maybe to you it's dumb and I'm just being totally stubborn by going to work even when I'm unwell. But it isn't me to quit halfway alrights. If I'm going to quit nows, why bother working the past 2 days thens? Honestly, I couldn't give a damm about the money really. It's just that I don't wanna see my hard work go to waste. Am i making any sense?? Nvm. I'm quite a workaholic, yea I already know that.
close your eyes, say a little prayer
xxton
♥being MYSELF at 8:30 PM
