♣ Saturday, September 27, 2008
why did I even bother telling you so much. Really it baffles me. Why did I even think that you would understand what I'm going through. It's plain obvious you don't. You probably just think that I'm being dramatic, that I'm over exaggerating again, that I'm making a mountain out of a mole hill, that in you words I'm not thinking straight, I'm acting too much. Screw you. It fcking hurts and I'm not exaggerating!!! You would know if you even bothered to visit me the past few days. But since you have no idea what discomfort I've been through or am going through shouldn't you at least be less harsh.
Really. I hated the way you talked to me, like I was some stubborn kid that knows nothing but insist on having her way. I know I must eat, but I fcking can't without my whole darn mouth hurting alrights. So really stop forcing me to do something I obviously can't. Fck you don't know how painful it is! I will eat if I could, but I can't. Period. Already at lunch, I was cringing with pain as I took each bite. Gave up and left half the food untouched. I know so not me.
The only thing I could probably eat now is ice cream. I guess. Will remember to get some tomorrow. For now, i guessing apple juices, herbal tea and water would have to do.
** How did we end up arguing again and me losing my temper..What wrong with me. Shiats! Urgghhh I'm just gonna head to bed. =X
♥being MYSELF at 9:27 PM
