♣ Monday, December 29, 2008
Decided to go to church today and did lunch with the family afters at Glory cafe in katong. Walked past the tiny car showroom at tembling road when i decided to pitch my vespa idea to my dad again. That old man is as stubbon as a mule. Oh wells didn't expect anything out of it i guess, just kinda decided to irritae him alittle.hehs. But zomg at least I learnt that ive got an effing cool uncle today. He was like going on and on about vespas and how he knows this guy who imported his vespa from england and its a downright beauty! ZOMG!
Did some shopping at marina square and River Island for awhile before heading down to meet silly boy for dinner. Guess it kinda went downhill from there.
Had initially made reservations at Outback Steakhouse but decided to go with japanese at the last minute. Guess it's really my fault for not making sure, but I thought that the waraku at cuppage was still the same as before, which was my favourite for a period of time. It's changed so much though, its mostly tepayaki stuff nad alls, very boring and blah. Maybe it would have been wiserto have done ichiban instead. At least im familiar with the menu but yea. It's really not easy to keep making the decisions all the time and the stress of making the right one especially when another person is involved is enough to kill me. I've got high standards for myself. Sometimes it's just nice to sit back and let someone call the shots. Missed Ip man cause tickets were selling fast. Caught agnus, thongs and perfect snogging instead. Pretty funny show. Guessed everything was fine thens, but...
Just got off the fone with ellsie and drew- cause she decided that i needed a guy's point of view and her darling is apparently the best man for the job. Wasn't much help, im still really confused and all mixed up, but they did bring up certain issues that makes sense though im not too sure i like what im hearing. Shiatsss! I'm starting to be one of those girls who are deliberately delusional. But reality hurts, hurts so bad. I rather convince myself to believe that I mean the world to you, that you really care beyond the superficial, that you're just clueless and not because you just don't bother, that maybe im just being selfish, spolit and insesible here. Initially it was easier but can i still do so nows?
Can I really? I thought that if i was better, if i put in more effort, maybe it's me. Ellsie helped me realise that I should stop abusing my own self esteem.Zomg!!
♥being MYSELF at 1:25 AM
