♣ Wednesday, April 1, 2009
It's 1am nows and I'm alittle bummed. Alrights i guess its more than a little. I am officially really bummed out. It's kinda sad actually that something as superficial as clothes actually matter so much. I would think that all that mattered was comfort and well looking basically presentable. Hell wait, I look better than presentable most of the time. I mean, I still manage to make people take a second look sometimes. Besides my totes are pretty pretty whats?!? And don't be mistaken, I do dress fancy on occasions lols, I do. I would think that would be sufficient enough to make you feel proud. I mean I am confident of who I am and how I look but I guess my style just doesn't fit that of your ideal.
To be honest that's kinda a sad thing to know because I would have thought there were other stuff that mattered more than how I choose to dress. Isn't personality, character, blah blah more important. Feels like your feelings are pegged on the way i dress sometimes. Suddenly I'm feeling a little insecure. It's sad to know that I've disappointed you and I'm just gonna keep doing so but I guess its just not me to conform to the pressure that others put on me. I can't change my style just like that, I just don't feel comfortable. It's just so not me. Which makes me wonder if you feel any less because of this, or would things change if a girl who fit the "dream image" comes into the picture.
I guess it's just something you have to get over cause im not bulging this time. You would know why if you were in my shoes for a day. I just can't seem to find the right words to describe how im feeling nows. Tomorrow is gonna be a long busy afternoon. I'm better be off to bed nows.
dresses and heels that impt...
ton =S
♥being MYSELF at 12:41 AM
